Thursday, April 28, 2011

Self Evaluation

I wanted to label this post, "What I learned about myself." but I already have that post, so maybe I am getting a little wiser after all. Anyway, this whole competition has been very interesting to me, and I really have learned about myself. So if you care to know what is inside my head, keep reading, otherwise, save yourself now!

I have a comfort zone that is really quite small. I do lots of things sufficently, but very few things well. If I don't feel sufficient or good at something, I just quit, or don't do it at all. There is proof in many areas of my life such as guitar, voice, and piano lessons to name a few. I am afraid of rejection, so I don't put myself in positions where I may be rejected. (not trying out for sports, or things of that nature.) I live my life very safely. I am not a risk taker by any stretch of the imagination. I live a comfortable, relatively easy life compared to others who struggle each day with various challenges. (of which I am thankful, and truly feel blessed.) Never putting myself out - there! The point I am trying to make is that I have never really worked hard for something. Never felt I needed to prove myself. Just been content to be... never reaching, stretching, or going to unfamiliar areas of "my world."

I went into this little "contest" at the persuasion of a friend, with no real intent to win. But I found as I worked hard that I felt a sense of accomplishment that I had never really felt before. At each training session I found myself sweating, pushing, and working through things I had no idea my body could actually do. Occasionally my partner and I would both show up wearing our "Got Courage" t-shirts, and I would smile to myself and think about a talk given by Sister Dalton of the General Young Womens program. In this talk she was telling the young women of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints that there will be difficult times when they will have to stand up for what they know to be true and that it will be difficult to be different than those around them, but that it is okay because, "We can do hard things." That thought continued to come into my mind all through this contest as I pushed myself in a way I never had. I have always chosen the easy way, the comfortable way, the safe way. But I learned, "I can do hard things."

That small box is still pretty small, and I am not stepping out of it, but I am making it a little bigger. What I have learned has been on a physical level, but I hope I can apply it to other areas of my life as well. It is those hard things we are faced with (whether we choose them, or they choose us) that will strengthen us physically, emotionally, and spiritually.

So I say to you, "We can do hard things." Go out and conquer whatever it is that will push you to your limit and then over the edge to your own personal victory! See what it is you learn about yourself.

Good Things:
1. Pushing yourself over the edge
2. Friends who cheer you on
3. Learning about yourself


Valerie said...

Way to go Terra! Your posts are always so uplifting. We miss you guys!

Carters said...

Wow! A friend of mine and I have a saying we say now, coined on our trip to Washington D.C. When you spend every waking (and sleeping) minute with someone new for 5 days, you tend to share things you wouldn't normally share. The saying is: "I am telling the truth all day today." That is what I thought of when I read your blog. There is great power in telling the truth. I felt it as I read your entry. Thank you! It gave me courage for today.

thorkgal said...

Be grateful you can make those changes on your own terms. Being outside the box is tiring, especially when dropped out of it on your head. HA! Courage is a good motto. I will try to adopt it on my crazy journey.

Kennedy Sue said...

"You will never grow by being comfortable and you will never be comfortalbe while growing" or something like that. That was the first thing I learned in my class. I'm proud of you!

Amy said...

:-) Made me smile! You are an amazing woman! I am proud of you! Thanks for being my friend!